?my light will shine when all else fade.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

sundays are good for looking back at your week and fleshing out everything you went through.

1. I really do have an attention deficiency disorder. aaah!! my friend, Macey, read somewhere before that extreme stress can cause your memory to suffer. She was telling me the other day that she noticed a significant change in her memory, meaning she can't easily remember things no matter how recent. As for me, i'm slowly discovering that my attention span is screwed up! Sometimes i don't notice people are talking to me, or I sometimes zone out in the middle of a conversation! this is really horrible! I hope I can fix this as soon as possible.

2. I look like Chinese. There's this Chinese girl who walk into me and talk to me in chinese language! I was so embarassed because there's a lot of people there at the mall and most of them are looking at me. First thing that comes in my mind: am I being fooled in a reality show? is there a camera hidden on this girl's jacket/bag? I was spooked! after she finished talking chinese, I told her (as polite as I can) that I'm not Chinese and I can't speak nor understand Chinese language. She said sorry after hearing that. But my golly! I've always thought of myself as pinay or spanish (a lot of people thought that I'm from Mexico or Cuba) or malay or thai or south american (puerto rican - assuming?) or even african looking, but not chinita!? She said that I look like Chinese. Well, this is not the first time that people mistaken my ethnicity. One of my teacher thought that I'm Korean. Then my friends thought I'm from Cambodia.....weird??
I told Macey about it and then i sing, "alin, alin, alin ang naiba, isipin kung alin ang naiba". Chinese' skin is much whiter (my skin is kayumanggi)..chinese have straight hair, and there i was, looking more like dao ming szi than shan cai (meteor garden). hassledeck!

3. Friendster is perfect for pinoys. i was thinking about the sudden friendster craze a couple of years ago, and why it has been so. I realized that friendster is a sure hit in the philippines for two reasons: (1) filipinos are chismoso and usiseros, yes both boys and girls. (2) we are all narcissistic in a way.. pinoys love being greeted on tv or love even just their name appearing on the text tube channels (friends list), and we also love being complimented by other people (comments/testimonial). I have Friendster and Myspace account and I do enjoy using both. Myspace is more popular here in america because you can freely express yourself in this site without the fear of being deleted by the Myspace Management...yes, you can say bad/hate words there unlike in Friendster that you can't post a bulletin that contain bad/hate words. American teens love freedom so Myspace are perfect for them while teens in the Philippines are still conservative on some ways.

4. I am meant for straight hair. I sleep over in Macey's house last night. It was all fun! ofcourse we had our girl talk and bonding as usual but somewhere around 5pm, she told me that I should try a new hairstyle. She curled my hair....my golly! I looked so weird with that perm-like curled hair! I used to curl my hair before but not the kind that Macey did. She even put gel and hairspray that made it worst. So we end up brushing my hair and after 30 minutes of non-stop-hair-brushing, I look like baluga na! (which is not far off from my normal look..) and this morning, I brushed my hair with a fine tooth comb! i came to the church with nice, wavy hair in a half ponytail. I love my wavy hair, although i still love my straight hair more. So next time you'll be going to sleep over in Macey's house, never let her touch your hair! I love you sis! atleast we found out that you don't have any talent whatsoever on hairstyling.

5. Mackenzie and I have an interesting attitude in common: we both have a huge heart for animals. Remember my story about the squirrel last week? My friend, Mackenzie, happened to stop by to my blog (thanks macky!) last week and read my posts. I was surprised when she mentioned my posts about the squirrels. SHe said that she had 3 goldfish when she was 8yrs. old. She over-feads them and she just woke up one morning and found out that all of her beloved goldfish are dead. She didn't touch her medium size aquarium for 3 days...she can't accept the fact that the goldfish are all dead! but then she decided to have a proper burial for the goldfish. you know what?? she flushed her dead pets in the toilet! she was crying while the water was draining down the toilet bowl. Important Lesson i've learned from her story: Too much LOVE is not good.

After reading all this realization I had, I'm sure you'd think that I'm weird..my friends are weird..my experiences are weird..so go on..indulge yourself..laugh..because you, my friend, yes you - are weird too!

SMILE...you're with me!